Fearless...Someday

Taylor Swift, boy can she sing...and write a song that will tug at your every heart string!!! She is one of my favorite singers, actually, the words in her songs are some of my favorite. I really like love songs, I can usually take a song and relate it's words to my own life or feelings, as I'm sure so many others can. But there are some singers that put out entire CD's that can instantly bring me to tears, or elation, with their words, because I can relate so closely to what they are singing, Taylor is one of those singers, Colbie Caillat is another, but I won't go there for fear that I'll never stop!

One of the first things I do when I buy a new CD is immediately pull out the coverlet and go through the words of each song. At the very back of Taylor's Fearless CD I found this, where she explains what being fearless means to her-

"Fearless is not the absence of fear. It's not being completely unafraid. To me, Fearless is having fears. Fearless is having doubts. Lots of them. To me, Fearless is living in spite of those things that scare you to death. Fearless is falling madly in love again, even though you've been hurt before. Fearless is walking into your freshman year of high school at fifteen. Fearless is getting back up and fighting for what you want over and over again...even though every time you've tried before, you've lost. It's Fearless to have faith that someday things will change. Fearless is having the courage to say goodbye to someone who only hurts you, even if you can't breathe without them. I think it's Fearless to fall for your best friend, even though he's in love with someone else. And when someone apologizes to you enough times for things they'll never stop doing, it's Fearless to stop believing them. It's Fearless to say "you're NOT sorry", and to walk away. I think loving someone despite what people think is Fearless. I think allowing yourself to cry on the bathroom floor is Fearless. Letting go is Fearless. Then, moving on and being alright...That's Fearless too. But no matter what love throws at you, you have to believe in it. You have to believe in love stories and prince charming's and happily ever after!!! Love is Fearless." Taylor Swift

Wow, that spoke volumes to me when I first read it! From someone so much younger to me, to have already figured all that out!!! I am far from being fearless, this I know, but I recently told one of my very best friends that it's fearless to believe that someday you WILL be fearless!!! There are a few things in Taylor's fearless story that I should do right now, but simply don't yet have the courage to do...I hope that someday I too will be fearless! I'm sure many have already heard about or read Taylor's fearless story, but I wanted to share it anyway since it's so touching and maybe it will inspire you to be fearless today!

New Year's Reso....What?

Oh, New Years Resolutions, yeah, I don't think I'll be making any of those this year! After all, I never seem to make it trough the whole year sticking to them anyway. I'll think instead, I'll just remain in close prayerful contact with my Father, and lean on Him to help me through the New Year!

If I were to make some resolutions, which I'm not, I imagine they would be things such as, I will go to the gym at least 4 times each week, or, I will really make it through my 365 Day Bible in 365 days this year! Maybe even something like, I will not spend time focusing on things that I have no control over, or let people hurt me when they plainly don't care enough to not hurt me. Something along the lines of, I will not loose my patients and get snippy with my children when they ask me over and over again the same thing in the same fifteen minute time span! Never mind, I'm always patient at all times, ahem, anyway, lets move on! After all, the only one that would realistically maybe happen ALL year, might be the gym one, but who's counting!

Whatever my resolutions may have been, you know, if I were to make them, they are already covered. I know that all I need to do is lean on God and be prayerful in all I do, and He will ensure all of my needs are met, that as long as I put time aside for Him each day, then He will ensure time for everything else, that through Him, I can change into the person He intends for me to be! So if I were to make just 1 resolution, I would say it would have to be that I resolve to spend this next year striving to be to woman that God fully intends for me to be! I hope that God richly blesses you in 2010, all your prayers are answered, and the unanswered ones...well, I've learned sometimes God knows what He's doing with those too Unanswered Prayers!

Not Me! Monday!!!

Welcome to Not Me! Monday! This blog carnival was created by MckMama. You can head over to her blog to read what she and everyone else have not been doing this week. After all, who couldn't use the chance at a last minute end of the year honesty session without being judged for it!!!

This week I in no way waited in line at Wal-Mart for 20 minutes to check out on Christmas Eve, with only 5 items in my arms, simply because I failed to take a list to the store with me earlier in the week, and then failed to return to said store before the mass Christmas Eve crowds hit! No way, I 'm way to prepared for that sort of thing!!!

I most certainly did not go to the mall one day last week and return with my own Christmas gift,  to ensure I would get exactly what I wanted, even though I was given specific instructions by my husband "do not buy your own gift!" I would never do such a thing as save my husband the joy of fighting the Christmas crowds to spend hours searching for the perfect gift in an overcrowded mall!

You will not find my Christmas cards still sitting in my car waiting on stamps, because I would never let something so small as moving across the country right before the holidays, or you know, a week at Disney World, get in the way of something so important as our family Christmas cards! Good thing I made them Happy New Year's, we've moved cards this year!!! (Guess I should head to the post office as soon as this post is up)

Last week I in no way was bribing sweet Laineybug with chocolate to encourage her to use the potty! I would never bribe my children, nope, never, not me!

Wordless Wednesday...Sort Of

Where do you find your joy...

Unanswered Prayers...

While I'm usually fairly good about not questioning the why's of things, okay, who am I kidding, I'm really bad about it...but I'm trying to get better (still working on that whole contentment thing!) I AM good at knowing that in due time God's time, all the why's become more than clear! Even all those unanswered prayers...or what we maybe just thought were unanswered prayers!

Awhile back I did a Not Me Monday, one of my favorite blogs to do by the way, just in case you were wondering...you weren't, oh sorry, well now you know! Anyway, it was this about God answering a prayer that I've been praying for years, and me being in denial about Him answering it simply because it wasn't in the exact manner I had been requesting! Imagine that, that He would do things His way rather than mine! Well, shortly after that post it became very clear, that that specific prayer was to still remain unanswered!

Now at the time, I met this with great frustration, as I had no understanding why it was to be this way. I try most times really hard to let most things go, and know that it's allready laid out for me, and no amount of worry I do, will change the course of any of it. But being human, and created to a fault, I can't help but question it sometimes. And question it, I did! Have I recieved answers, not really. Am I okay with that? Right now, yes. I've realized that as hard as is to not have this prayer answered, maybe I don't really want it answered! Of course someone else allready knows that, and maybe that's why for years, this certain prayer has remained unanswered.

As I write this I truly have no idea why this prayer is to remain unanswered but I know that for today I'm gratefull it isn't. I also know that someday it will become very apparent why it was never to be answered, someday maybe a month from now, it maybe five or ten years from now, all I can do is be patient and wait! And being patient is something I'm so very good at (insert large amounts of sarcasm here!!!) One thing I'm sure of is that I'm thankfull for both answered and unanswered prayers...

Not Me Monday!

Are you feeling guilty for feeding your children cereal for dinner three nights in a row last week? Hanging your head in shame because you had to re-wash the same load of laundry four times because you left in the washer too long? Don't worry, Not Me Monday is your chance to let it out and get it off your chest, with no judgement! Started by MckMama, you can head here to her blog to read what she and everyone else have not been doing this week. As for me well...

I was not recently seen acting in this manner...

as if I was re-living my college days or something  wishing I had acted this way in college, ahem! Most certaintly not me in a million years!

While my husband and three of our children were out of town, I in no way took full advantage of the situation and did not cook dinner for Laineybug and myself one time! At least not on the stove. Afterall, that may make me a bit lazy, so of course I still prepared homecooked meals for my precious daughter every night, and not once went out to eat!

Upon entering the living room and seeing this scene...

I in no way just left her to nap there, because I thought it was one of the cutest things I had seen in a long time!

I in no way spent part of my weekend doing something that I've been waiting  for, for a very long time, and I certainly did not enjoy every moment of it! Because I don't believe that good things come to those that wait!

I most certainly did not publish this post soooo fast that there is probably a million errors in it...sorry!!! A good blogger, would never do such things!

So what about you, what have you not been doing lately? I and the rest of the bloggers at MckMama's would love to hear all about it, and believe me, it's very theraputic! Won't you give it a try, and join us?

Goodbye's Got Me Down

Ugh...I'm usually a pretty upbeat person, but today, I just feel, ugh! Know what I mean? The goodbye's have got me down! As a military wife you have more than your fair share of goodbye's, but they never really get any easier! With each new duty station that you relocate to comes new adventures, new places, new experiences, and new friends! But, that also means there comes a time when you have to leave all that behind and say goodbye.

We've been at our current location for six years, so you can imagine we've grown quite close to some of our friends here! Today I had to say goodbye to one of my very best friends that I've ever had (she to is a military wife, and it was her family's time to move on). As I stood in my front yard embracing her one last time, both of our eyes filled with tears, my head swirlled with all of the years of wonderfull memories that we will forever have stored in our hearts! And as hard as it is to have to say goodbye, I do realize how very blessed I am to have the chance to meet such wonderful people and make such amazing friends every few years! Although, the friends I've had to say goodbye to can never be replaced, there is some comfort in knowing that new friends are not far behind for us both.

So as much as I hate goodbye's, and as much as I tried to prepare myself for today, it really has been an emotional day that I've seen coming for months now, I've have just tried not to think about it! And to add to the ugh factor, tomorrow I have to say goodbye to my husband, as duty calls him elsewhere for awhile...so, ugh is right! Such is the life of a military wife, but you know what? I still wouldn't change it for the world!